hmm

hey guys, i'm thinking of starting a photo blog. so like, no big change.. i might just add photographs to the poetry. invest in a new camera? yeah. lol. a good camera. just for more artsy purposes, i guess. WOOTS!

nightmare

as i lay there in twilight hour
branch shadows tap the window
the moon at its full phase gleams
i force my eyes shut

steps can be heard on the stairs
a flush from the toilet vibrates
and the clock tickitytocks away
i toss and turn

questions and essays chase me
as my mind sits empty and bare
my stomach grumbles and craves
i go under the covers

she opens the latch and enters
pulls my wrist and drags me with her
away from this place she will take me
to the trees and the mountainside

flying

i soar over and above triumphantly 

with the stars and by the clouds

feeling the wind against my face

i am flying

my wings outstretched and proud

strong and defiant against all

confident, sure, carefree

free from troubled thoughts

great pride swells within me

i cannot contain my energy

for my happiness is immeasurable

have never felt this way in years

no ball and chain to ground me

or snare to keep me still

i am free to fly wherever

reach for the heavens

i will.

beneath the waterfall

streaks and rays of light

shine upon the meadow

its dew faint but cool

at this silent hour of day

tall birches and oaks greet me

as i stroll by untrimmed grass

sparrow sings a familiar tune

i've heard it in my dreams

the rainbow's arc hits my position

i stare at its spectrum in awe

reminding me of a past love

that brightened my every second

the plateau appeals to me

from its edge i'd like to fly

forever fearless and free

like a seraphim from the heavens

another rainbow catches my eye

reflected by the light from crystal

product of the waterfall nearby

like a gateway to the unknown

i reach my hand through the surface

close my eyes in silent contemplation

through this thick ambience of melancholy

i still feel your presence nearby

the one to find

i wonder where you could ever be

in this strange, vast, and open sea.

i feel my loneliness cry out for you

but i know one day you'll be with me.

i've not the faintest clue who you are

but i'm sure you're out there, somewhere.

waiting, as patient as i currently wait.

for the fair moment that we'll share.

my mornings are glum and pointless

because you don't call to tell me

good morning, that you love me dearly,

what an exciting day today would be.

instead i force myself to rise

against my wish to just lay still.

because everyday i hope and pray

to meet you and for once feel real.

for without you in my life i am nothing

fainter than any shadow without you near.

only you can fill this empty void within me

and totally rid me of my doubts and fear.

kailan pa kaya natin makikilala ang isa't isa,

para matapos na ang aking paghahanap.

na makumpleto na ang pagkatao ko,

at sabay na tayong umabot sa alapaap.

happy birthday

its not the right time,

for us to meet in the flesh.

and i don't want to call,

it might lead to stress.

but maybe in time,

we can sit and be friends.

give it a year or so,

we'll catch up on all we missed.

for now let's be ghosts,

and unknown to each other.

so that life goes on, 

with no distraction or bother.

but i thought i might write,

happy birthday to you.

hope your days are pleasant;

enjoy your winnie the pooh

exam.

a splinter in my head,

driving me crazy it's irritating.

unwanted situation,

i just want this to end.

my mind keeps on wandering,

all these words seem senseless.

what is it my heart seeks?

i lose focus too easily.

i need to escape,

where should i run to or hide?

i'm a sloth, its disgusting.

no reply has yet reached me.

material is not complicated,

yet i just can't get to it.

there is no motivation,

if only kim chiu was here...

artista

tulala sa bintana

may hinahanaphanap

wala namang nakikita

wala sa isip, nakatunganga

mahirap kasing idibdib

na walang ligaya ang buhay

dahil may kulang sa araw

ang ngiti ng iyong mata

ikaw kasi ang langit

at hindi kita maabot

masaya sana kung kapiling

pero wala rin, malabo

artista ka kasi

at ako, normal na tao.

kung pede sana ipahiwatig

pagibig ko para sa iyo

suntok sa buwan, isang milagro

kung magkatuluyan man tayo

nanaginip lang ako

laki ng tama ko, seryoso.

totoo nga naman siguro

na walang mararatingan

ang crush kong ito para sayo

magjajakol na nga lang.

platonic attraction

you're quiet...

not a people-type of person..

but you could be if you like..

you can have fun on your own..

not the type to start off a conversation..

am i reading you right?

asks the admirable goddess

sitting next to me, elegantly

on a thursday afternoon

in east asian civ. 

i told her that she wasn't right

that i wasn't what she thought

she says, "maybe so".

melancholy and distraught

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

today i wanted to tell her.

why i thought she read me wrong.

the reasons behind my awkward mask.

was because of her, all along.

the truth is simple

i'm intimidated by her presence

it would shock her, for sure.

either she'd smile or take offense.

beauty, brains and personality.

she must be worth the world.

my highlight of the day.

God's Eden, unfurled.

it's clear to me she's taken

and that she's 3 years my senior.

but its platonic and not like that

took me a while to figure.

that she's great as a friend.

though we aren't that close.

she must be one of the nicest

and can rock out her clothes.

the best combo of style

are her eyes and that smile

didn't drop asian civ.

she makes the class worth the while.